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Pioneer Trails: Overland to Utah and the Pacific, 1847 to 1869
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Emeline B. Harris
Franklin Co
Mass.
James M. Harris
On the
left my mothers house at
Co. Mass.
the west. The next day
we took the cars at
and at 4 of the clock we were
in
night and the 26 we took a
canal boat passage to
we jouneyed it in 8 days we
had no stormy weather we
arrived in Buffalo the
day of May
Birthes
My father
My Mother
My sister
My self
My sister
E Born
E Born
L Born
Sealed To Bishop
in
also dead
Births
Married
& E.B.W. sealed
Sealed to
Deaths
Died
at
Births
Married
James Manson Woodwar
Deaths
died
Births = = = =
Married
Louis Edwin
Deaths
Births
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Deaths
Died on her Birthday
Died on her Birth-day
21 (Journal
of
Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
river to go the encampmant of
the saints.
Mrs W. and myself in their carriage.
We crossed the river a part of the
way on foot, and then went on to
the encampment about 7 miles
beyond; we reached the destined
place about sunset when we
it looked like pictures I have seen
of the ancients pitching their
tents and journeying from place
to place with their cattle and their
goods. We repaired immediately
to
took supper and slept for the
first time on the ground.
There was a snow-storm without
yet all was peace and harmony
within.
This morning
felt troubled about the little children
and
should all arrive to day in safety.
About twelve o'clock
on his -, and immediately
after
bringing word that his father
was behind with the teams; the
band then started out, together
with several other carriages to escort
he having stayed in
after the rest came away: he came
about five o clock, pitched his tent,
his stove, we put down the carpets
and soon had a comfortable place
to pass the night.
In the morning I
awakened out of a sound sleep and
saw
and the word was be ready to go
at twelve
of the o'clock we took breakfast; picked up and packed
off as soon as possible, I rode with
o'clock. we took up a line of
march and left
travelled over a very bad muddy
road, reached the encampment
about four o'clock, formed a
line with the wagons, pitched
their tents, made their fires and
soon had a place fitted and
prepared to pass the night. We are
all happy and contented as yet
and determined to go ahead.
This morning
was warm and sunny the
most pleasant day we have had
since we left the city we stared
behind the principal part of the
teams. the first hill we came
to a balking horse they had
in the family wagon began
to show his obstinacy and
hindered us considerably
we went on about seven miles
and camped in a hollow with
teams had gone on with the
company ahead of us. and he
was obliged to tent with his
father.
bed in the wagon and slept
This morning ^
Sarah Ann taking her mother in
her carriage and Joseph on
horse back beside them went
on to overtake their teams.
After breakfast
and I took a walk in the woods
just behind the tent we found
stems of strawberry leaves green
and fresh I intend to keep them
as a memorial of the time
when we returned we found
they were about starting
and I came up the hill which
was very long on foot seated
our selves on a prostrate log and
here I am at the present time
scribbling.
We travelled about
We reached the place of encampment
about noon having travelled 3 miles
finding almost all of the teams
had gone we proceeded on our
journey together with
having waited for our coming.
about ___ miles ride brought us
to
Western town. Here we saw thirty
or more loafers loitering around
the Groceries &c.
up among them all armed and
equipped which seemed to excite
some of them considerably there
being those there who knew him
and they were overheard talking
by themselves in a low tone of shooting
&c. saying there would never be a
better chance however nothing
occurred of consequence.
From the village we had a very
bad road it was so dreadful
muddy and crooked. Some of
us walked along on the bank of the.
the roads being so exceedingly bad
the horses could scarcly draw
their loads. It was after dark
when we came in sight of the
camp and a dismal looking
it is the tents are all huddled
in together and the ^
interspersed some are singing
and laughing some are praying
children crying &c. every sound
may be heard from one tent to
another; it is late and I must
We have stopped all day in order
to recruit the teams they being
nearly tired out after dragging
through the mud. We have
washed mended visited &c.
I has been been a ^
we started at ten o' clock.
I walked perhaps a mile and a
half along the shore of the
riding on his mule and said
that ^
down I then went back to the
wagons they were not yet up the
first hill they took took the
load from the broken wagon and
put it on another and hitched on
the horses. We travelled about
three miles and came to the
village of
Western town here we forded
the river; it was very bad travelling
and continued to grow worse; we
went about a mile farther and
camped on the bank of the river
where we have an excellent view
of Bona. The rest of the company
have gone on about two miles farther
there are only the two families
camped here.
30
This morning at
ten o clock we were again on the
road which we found very muddy
and bad until we came to
the prairie there it was better.
We arrived at the camp about
three in the P.M. having trav-
elled about eight miles the
teams were very tired and
so were some of the folks.
we found they were on very damp
ground by the side of a little
muddy brook. After the tents
were pitched
of poles for
This morning about the time
we were ready to start a man
by the name of
and laid claim to a yoke of
oxen belonging to
said they strayed or were stolen
from him three years before
to avoid trouble Mr. M paid him
his price which was thirty dollars
in gold. This day we have had
rather better roads we travelled
about nine miles and camped
in a pleasant valley by a small
stream of water about three miles
from the principal encampment.
Today we
are
have been detained in consequence
of
fine boy her father has named
this place the Valley of David in
honor of the child it is situated
in
Chequest County Iowa.
At evening
came down from the camp with
their wives,
and, took supper and blessed the child; it has been a
lovely day, warm and beautiful.
About noon
an easy carriage, to convey
to the camp; she started about
two
of the o'clock I rode in the buggy behind
them, the teams followed after,
all arrived in safety about four
o'clock.
of the clock Pitchèd their tents on Pitched
the side hill, next to
the tents here in rows like ^
it is really a houseless village.
Just at dusk the band com-
menced playing and some of
the young people collected and
amused themselves by dancing.
This is a stormy day, a part of
the camp intended to have moved
on but it impossible; it is very
muddy without yet the tents
seem to be quite dry. Tuesday
night at twelve o'clock the tent
hooks on one side gave way and the
tent pole leaned but from being on
guard saved it from falling.
The rain is pouring down in torrents
here and there it sprinkles through
the tent yet we keep a good fire
and are quite comfortable.
Today I
slept till one o'clock after being
up all night the rain had beat
through the tent and wet my
pillow and the quilts but I did
not take cold
quite ^
finely.
sitting up again tonight.
an unpleasant day at times a
slow drizzly rain and then
thick clouds gloomy and dismal
they are all asleep around me
Sarah is not quite so well to night
35 We continued in this place
being prevented by the mud until
Thursday the 19. we then proceeded
on our journey
wagon fixed to ride in we
left about eleven o'clock we had
not gone far before S__ began
to grow sick from the easy
rocking of the wagon and
she was no better until we
arrived at the stopping place
Sarah has sunk
to sleep
This
day
has been cold and chilly
we hav we have fixed a stove
with the wa
This day has
been cold and chilly we had
a stove fixed in
the ^ and a bed for
mother, and I rode there with
her we had pretty good road
all day travelled about fouteen
miles stopped in a mean
damp place Sarah stayed in
in her wagon and had a
fire all night.
This morning we started
we at ten o'clock had started
a
pretty decent road most of the way travelled eleven miles
and camped in a pleasant
place almost at the outside of
the camp it has been a
dark gloomy day.
22
This morning about nine
o'clock we left the camp
went about a mile and came
to the bottoms they were not so
bad as we had anticipated after
we got across the bottom we went
into the wood came in sight of
the a camp crossed the river
indescribable some in a boat
teams wading through and
men dragging them up the hill
with a long rope the banks
were very steep and muddy
and the road very bad for a
mile beyond one very long steep
hill where they had to double team
just at the top of the hill
was the camp we came on..
beyond all the rest so we might
be a little more retired.
it is quite a pleasant situation
here we all rejoice that we came
over the
very hard we have had some
thunder and lightning this
evening we have only travelled
about five miles. This is
This has been a stormy day we
were obliged to tarry on account
of the weather about two in
the afternoon we had some
hail they fell as large or larger
than buckshot it continued to
rain through the night.
39
yesterday is rainy and unpleas ^
very exceedingly muddy at evening
wet and damp it would be
more comfortable in her wagon so
they prepared it and about four
in the afternoon she left the tent
Last night considerable snow
fell this morning was quite cold
some snow has fallen during
the day very muddy
has taken up her abode in the
family wagon two or three doors
from Sarah this evening
has been playing on his flute
sounded very melodious at a little
distance.
40
This has been a pleasant day
the first one we have had this
week
quite sick all day better this
evening I am with her now.
another fair day not quite as
muddy as it has been
ning on a hunting excursion
Mrs. Whitney is better has visited
together it is the first time
Sarah has left the wagon since
Tuesday she stayed in the
tent until after dark took
supper there and then went back
rested very well all night
41
This morning I feel first-rate
it is spendid the sun shines
brilliantly the ground is some
what
frozen it is rather cool; the sick
ones are all better.
This has been another warm
sun shine day we are still here
nothing new except
has returned from a tradeing
excursion in the country has
sold the riding colt for one yoke
of oxen and another horse
for another.
another fine day Sarah has
been taking a ride today for the
first time.
a young squirrel which she intends to
tame
42
To day has been a pleasant day
nothing occurred of consequence.
we are still here cooking and
Thursday
worth mentioning.
returned since our departure
he brought several letters but
none for me we had written
letters to send back I wrote one
that night to send to my
sister pinned it to his
coat pocket said ^
be moved until he saw her
we intend to pursue our
journey in the morning.
and this company have
started on today
gave them some cakes as they passed
to night we are to put away
everything we are not using and
be ready to take an early start
about eight ^
pretty good roads to the next
camp here we came up with
or moist ground not pleasant
for camping at all we got there
a little afternoon stopped and
rested until
up he having been detained to
mind a wagon they then
concluded it would be better
to go on it looked like rain
we went on forward They found a man who had some corn to
sell gave them an order to go. and
get it the company sent three
teams from this place we had
rather bad travelling most of the
way we camped by ourselves
about twelve miles from where
we started it was about five
oclock when we stopped
cold and windy night
Sat. Apr. 4.morning
us and went on. Three
of
missed sent three men on horseback
after them found them about
four miles off a man driving them
as soon as they were found
we began to get ready to start
it had rained all the
morning and by this time
began to be very muddy
had considerable trouble in
starting his horse in the buggy
broke a thill and cross piece
it rained as if it would
wet everything on earth about
three miles brought us to
a small creek and ascened
a very steep hill and are
safely harbored all in good
It still continues to rain
they say there is no crossing
the creek now it has rain so
high They have sent the cattle
away to browze and men to watch
wagon and related the following
circumstances
on Saturday evening he went
into the woods by himself
offered up the signs of the
Holy Priesthood and prayed
to the Lord that the storm
might abate and the sun
shine forth in his Majisty
and for the health prosperity
and salvation of the Camp
of Israel. about twelve
o'clock the storm ceased
the sky became clear and
was so light we could see
to pick up a pin froze a
very little. At morning the
sun arose brilliantly and
we had one of the most
pleasant days we have had
since we started on our
journey although the ground was
wet and muddy. About eleven
o'clock they called the camp
together and also
company and a dry eminence
of ground and there gave
them some instruction
with regard to their teams
and they should stop here
until the weather and
the roads would enable us
to pursue our journey with
more ease and pleasure
taught them the neccessity of
union patience meekness
forbearance &c in order to
make us happy.
Miller
Miller said he had been out
seven miles found the roads
so bad it was impossible
to pass.
gave a short exhortation
and some remarks from
Hawes
about one o'clock had a
good time the brethren filt
the spirit of union and blessing.
instructed the Captain of
each ten to call their com.
together and administer
bread & wine in his own
company and also in
Clayton
Millers
he thinks he has never seen the
brethren & sisters more cheerful
gave out an appointment for the
Captains of tens to come together
at 6 o'clock to take into
consideration the propriety of
sending after corn
They
assembled on a high eminence
about half way between the
three camps it was thought proper
to send for corn enough to last
to
to be bought between here and that
place for less than three bits a bushel
and but very little at that price
five teams Captain Hi Eg ^
four teams
the distance to in inhabitants is
twelve miles we being camped
in an entire wilderness in the
timber of
timber being almost wholly walnut
or hickory. one or two Missourian
came into the camp in the course of
the day. The camp retired to bed
^
morning the sixth found it had
commenced raining the forest
looked dark and dismal the rain
poured down in torrents.
About seven in the morning
ten wagons with four yoke of
oxen each started for corn making
in the whole forty yoke of oxen
and twenty men we feel much
for those who have gone as it is
now twelve o'clock and it has
not ceased raining one amount
it continued raining until towards
night when it stopped and looked
like clearing away early in the
evening or between seven and eight
a rumbling noise was heard
afar off in the air and soon
after the wind commenced
blowing a perfect hurricane
overthrowing tents scattering fire
and almost
putting taking away our breaths the first blow lasted
about twenty five minutes
during which time the rain
Commenced pouring down in
torrents wetting beds through.
wagon covers &c. &c. the rain
continued nearly all night with
considerable wind and cold too
the morning destitute of homes almost for
only here and there a tent had
stood the wind of the preceding
night and now they were
frozen so it was almost impossible
to raise them the wind continued
high through the most part of the
day the ground was frozen they talked
of starting in the morning to go
on but the team they send after
corn did not arrive that night
52 Wednesday morning of the
was pleasant but quite muddy
did not seem very favorable
for going across the prairie
towards noon
on horseback went out with some
others to examine the roads came
back and said it was impossible
to go that day we had better
stay where we were on half
rations than try to go on
soon after the teams they sent
for corn arrived bringing only
bushels of corn finding no
more to be sold this is all the
corn we can have for our teams
until we get to
this is hard for the poor horses
and cattle to drag through the
mud with scarcely anything to eat
they said likewise that the roads
were very bad indeed they called
a council and concluded to
start the next morning
Towards night
and
came up the hill to be ready to
start in the morning also
and
Thursday ^ and looked like rain about eight
o'clock we were all in our wagons
one company following after
another went on we found roads
very muddy had not gone far
before it commenced raining this
made the roads worse than
before we crossed some very
bad sloughs and got stuck
once we went on to
company about seven miles from
where we started in the open prairie
every thing wet a mile and a half
from any wood it was a long time
before they could start fires
everything of our families only being wet
buggy and the Bishops one horse
wagon are here there is five of us.
in one wagon and three of them in
another to sleep or stay we happened
to have a few biscuit with us or we
would have been supperless the rain
runs into our wagon it has wet the
bed &c.
happened to come along so we had some
milk for the children. it is the first
time we have camped in the open
prairie and the first time we have
Friday Morning the
and has rained all night the mud is
very deep
went back to see where the folks were found
them in a perfect mudhole
two or three
of their teams stuck fast so it
was impossible to get them out last
night. this is a new era the most
trying time we have had.
are ^
and take some through to the timber
about five miles and then return
with the teams for the rest.
Joseph went to his fathers camp
several times in the course of the
day and two of the Bishops wagons
were brought up with one more of
Josephs the next morning about
nine o'clock
with teams to take on the rest
of their wagons and also
and some few more we all
arrived at the camp in safety.
about ^
camping ground the corner of a
prarie skirted with wood I hope
we may stay here until good trav-
elling
three miles farther on but is here
A pleasant day ^
came down from Br. Brighams camp
with him to hold a council here
they are to drive with us people
are putting on their summer
clothes to day it is so warm
Whitney
back teams after their wagons left behind
and
council sit in the open air and con-
tinued until about two o clock.
they then took dinner and
with his men returned to his camp
soon after
people together and administered
the sacrament giving them some
Another beautiful day almost every
one is washing Men are mending
broken wagons fixing ox yokes
repairing harnesses &c &c
Tomorrow we are to leave this beautiful
sequestered spot and go we know not
whither
We put out this morning about
nine o'clock travelled five miles
and camped on a hill above a
pleasant wood near
camp we have had some bad roads
to day although very pleasant over-
head picked whole bunches of
wild flowers in the road and fields
there are two or three camps in
Wednesday
in our camping ground
and her father have received
letters from home bringing word
from
of wickedness dancing schools
grog-shops and billiard tables
and every one supporting himself
at the expense of his neighbor
also bringing tidings that
Lars
of which in the same evening
the band gave a christening
giving music first with the brass band
and then with drums and violins
several songs also were sung this
commencing soon after dark was
kept up until after twelve o'clock.
had an April shower during
the night just enough to cause the
grass to spring up without doing
much injury to the roads. we
have travelled to day 6 or 7 miles
of prarie and camped in the
middle of it about two o clock
ed in sight of us. Eight rattlesnakes
have been killed in the course of the
day two oxen have been bitten and
one of
there is some little grass for the horses
and cattle here some one discovered
a bee tree and took from it several
pounds of wild honey which
has been divided between the
different families it is the first
wild honey I have ever seen
tastes considerably of wild flow ^
it has been almost uncomfortably
warm during the whole day.
A cool cloudy morning about
nine o'clock we commenced
our day's journey travelled across
the prarie the distance of eight
miles once while walking with
several other girls we saw a ^
the first I had ever seen we
camped in a thick forest just
above a creek we arrived there
about one o'clock but some
of the company had gone
on to another camp through
mistake families were divided
some here and some there. after
dinner
best to go on as there was a
bad place to cross he would
like to be on the other side
before
it commenced raining
about three o'clock we left this
place just across the creek some
one had set the prarie on fire
how we were to cross this was a
question it ran like lightning
through the grass making a crackling
among the bushes resembling
the noise of burning crackers
how ever they put out the fire the
width of a road so we could
just pass through the ground
was black and the white ashes
flew in our faces as we crossed
about a mile brought us in sight
of the camp just on the border
of a prarie here we joined
the rest of our company and
camped for the night it is rather
damp wet prarie.
we had a little black wolf here some
one had taken from a hollow tree
in the woods it moans piteously
before breakfast went on about a mile
and a half and selected a new camping
ground on the border of ^
above a creek on the other side of which
is a thick wood he then returned
and directed us to come here
Taylor
an opposite hill this afternoon
the boys have been fishing in the
creek and caught some little chub
fishes such as abound in the streams
of
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many of the brethren went this
morning to
to meeting at 4 o'clock we had
a meeting by the creek to admin
ister the sacrament preaching
by
a warm day and night in meeti ^
time
from
A council has been held to day at
Brighams camp in which the
brethren have decided that those
who are sufficiently prepared
will cross the mountains while
others will make a location on
brethren who have left their families
in Nauvoo are to stop and
put in a crop and then return
and bring their families to it that
they may have something to
come to not be destitute when
they arrive there. They also
decided that we should all
be put on rations of half a pound
of flour a day with other things
this is I believe all I have heard
at dusk
the company together to get corn
for their horses it having come
as they expected thirty five
ears a piece for horses none
for oxen-some rain fell
during the night.
another pretty day some rain
in the course of it part of
Kimballs company have
moved on today his ^
could not they some of them
being gone for corn we intend to
move on in the morning.
other companies have gone on
to day about six miles
We are still here because
some of the teams sent for corn
have not yet arrived this morn-
ing two families by the name
of
without giving any notice
and bought their oxen and
cow yesterday I forgot to
mention that I wrote
several letters to
to send by
I believe
finished a trade with
giving him
tomorrow morning early
we are to move on.
just after dark a storm
came up the wind blew
thunder rolled and light-
ning flashed the storm
continued all night
the morning of found us here Br. Durphy
started about seven o'clock
and about ten
Rockwell
and
off. before Porter went
he came and treated us
with wine in a twin-bottle
about two o'clock found
us ready for a start we
went on without interup ^
until five o'clock when it
began to rain slowly we
saw dozens of rattlesnakes
in passing along we camped
about 4 miles from where
we started just on the edge
of a bank or cut on the other
side there is a wolf's den
it has rained some but not
much they say there is
excellent feed for cattle here
we are without wood and
no bread cooked at all
now the sea bread comes
in play to night we all
made a supper of sweet=
and water and seabread.
is cool and beautiful
I have picked some blue
violets which remind me
of
of
strayed away and men have gone
on horseback to find them
Markham
nine o clock bringing with him sev-
eral yoke of oxen which they put
before Br. Kimballs wagons and took
them to the next camp it was
a pleasant place the corner of
a prarie
here we after dark Kimball
him returned with the horses
found them about eight miles
off. Here we passed the night the
next morning pursued our journey
travelled about five miles stop
and let the cattle feed for about
two hours and then went on five
miles farther and camped for
We arose early and started as
soon as possible considerable
rain having fallen during the
previous night the roads in some
places were very bad about five
miles brought us to the camp
three miles from
other companies had arrived
here before us. This is the place
where they intend to put in a
crop. this afternoon I crossed
the creek or river found the
most beautiful spot I ever saw
viewing it from the opposite bank
the ground was covered with a
carpet of green and interspersed
with flowers which might have
done honor to the Elysian bowers
Today
the stand that no one should
return to
until they had done something
towards helping build
up this place to help those who stay and
those who shall come after they
made some arrangements for work
making fence building log houses &c.
&
of
to go back to Nauvoo nothing has
happened since we arrived here worthy
of notice it has rained most of
the time retarding the progress of work
Meeting was held in the forenoon
a few remarks by
afterwards by
we should not go from this place
until there was something accomp
li
he wanted houses built for those
who remained so we might take
all the tents along with us a
fence made around the field
TheAt night when the horses and cattle
were brought up one of the
horses Old Bill we call him had
been bitten by a rattlesnake in
three or four places about his
nose being the first one of
suffered by accident on the
journey he applied to the
Indian
in relieving him he exerted every
means in his power and though
the wound was very badly
swollen yet on Wednesday he
was partially recovered so as
to eat some they gave him
some corn at night he ap-
peared to be very restless
getting up and laying down
alternately the next morning
they let him go to feed and
about noon they brought word
that he was dead he fell dead
upon the log as he was attempting
to cross on it this was Thurs.
the
his death for he has been of great
use to us he was very large and
strong and always true to his
place Thursday night we had
a tremendous shower attended with
wind awful thunder and fearful
lightning.
When will sorrow leave my
bosom all my days have I
experienced it oppression has
been my lot when O when shall
I escape the bondage is not my
life a romance indeed it is
a novel strange and marvellous
here am I brought to this great
city by one to whom I ever
expected to look for protection
and left dependant on the
mercy and friendship of
strangers Merciful Providence
wilt thou long suffer this woman
I forever be unhappy will the time
never come when happiness and
enjoyment will be the lot of
this lump of clay when thraldom
and oppression will be cast off
my life has been one continual
it seems sometimes as if
death would be a comfort
and then again when I
think of the Gospel I feel re-
signed to the lot God has
assigned me but what
has life ever been to me
from the days of my
childhood almost ever
since I left my mothers
arms I have been afflicted
and troubled ipes in school
I had enjoyment to be sur
but how often was I crossed
were not some of the scholars
persecuting me because
and I were friends and as soon
as
flourish were they not harassing
me on every side did they
not tear ^
keep me from
the Good Spirit interposed and
provided a way for me to be re-
leased from the hands of a cruel
guardian who pretended so
much
respect for me that he did not
wish me to associate with my own
mother and sister because they were
Saints of the Most High God or as
he called them
this method of escape not merely
for escape but he with whom I
was to be connected was my lover
in truth I loved him and I
believed his proffessions to be true
Then I thought all dangers would be
past but alas misery presses
me heavier and ^
I go farther O God my Heaven
ly Father assist me do not let it
ised me days of joy and glad-
ness and O Lord send not more
affliction than I can bear
before it O Lord impart thy
spirit I grow sick at heart
in vain does the sun shine
bright my heart is faint my
soul longs____________
This day like all others is full
of trouble sorrow and afflic-
tion are my attendants O
my
God how long wilt thou suffer this once I could have
filled this book with expressions
of happiness but Alas sorrow
is my portion I behold those
around me enjoying the
society of their dearest friends
while I am cut short and why
is it is it because of my sin and
wickedness or is it a trial of
my patience Heavenly Parent
is the name of thy Holy Son
Jesus do I beseech thee to
pity and send comfort and
consolation to an afflicted
soul have mercy and forgive
and grant me the desire of my
heart and I will forever praise
or sister to advise me but
I am cut short of all these
blessings I have friends dare
I unbosom my heart to them
no no I know them not but
those I have tried and proved
I am not afraid to trust
Grat Father of merciest be pleas-
ed to grant me the request
of my heart.
Last night there came a steamboat
up the river O how my youthful heart
fluttered with hope with anx-
iety my limbs were affected to
that degree I was obliged to lay
aside my work I rely upon the
promises he has made me and not all that has yet been said can
shake my confidence in the only
man I ever loved but to return
hope revived in my bosom
I watched the boat I looked
out at the door I walked a
few steps out of the yard I saw
a person approaching my heart
beat with fond anticipation
it walked like
nearer and just as I was about
to speak his name he spoke
and I found I was deceived
by the darkness last night
it were reality Heavenly Father again
bring us together. Today I am
alone and I have time for
reflection memory brings
the past before me in all its joyous
light life seems like a dream
am I awake would that this
were a dream and that I could
awake and find myself at the
side of him my h--
Boats are coming time have
past to day and where is
all his promises all his vows
no never they must sting
him to the very soul and
I pray God that they may and
that remorse of conscience will
bring him back to the path of
duty= had I been treacherous
I might have expected as much
true to him and if he would
be as true to me I could not complain
O God grant that he may soon
return for my heart is breaking
for him and O God if he is sit
uated so that he cannot return
allow him to write to me
that I can know something
about his (
whereabouts)
O God I bless thee that in thy
mercy thou hast this day permitted
me to hear news from a distant
shore and that thou art kind
and tender O God forgive my
unbelief and save him from
the wave give him dreams and
visions of the night that he may
know Thy will O Lord and do it and
grant that he may return to me
and not forget his first love
18
Again have my friends in a
distant country at the home
of my child hood remembered
me and him whom I love they
know not he is far away on the
stormy ocean perhaps sleeping
in the bottom of the sea and
perhaps tossed on his vessel by
the furious winds that blow
across the sea this though is
almost to much for human
nature to bear my heart aches
my brain is dizzy at the idea
It brings the past before
me in all its various lights
and shades with all its
labyrinths and in
it some places I see happiness pictured in its
I see joy and sorrow intermingled
and in others I see dark places where
I could hardly distinguish the
Hand
of Providence where I could barely
escape with life where sorrow got
a foothold on my bosom which
can never be driven away save by one
whose power over my mind has ever
been sufficient to soothe me in
affliction to calm me in distress
to make me happy in his society
and I hope soon very soon (May
God grant it) to see him and hear
words of love and affection wilt
Thou O God
forever seperate me from one
to whom I gave my whole and
undivided affection in all the
honesty and truthfulness of
my heart and with all the sim-
plicity and virtue of a youthful
+ girl I knew nothing of the world
I find it full of deceit and wickedness
when those we consider our best friends
deceive us what are we to expect
from others? no mercy is the answer
I feel it daily the world look upon
me perhaps as though I had driven
him away by my cruelty but never
no never can he rise up and say I
neglected him or reproached him
no ever now when he has left
me to the mercy of a cold
unfeeling world am I ready to
receive him to my heart again
when ever he returns and I want
O how much I desire to have
him come O
thou O ^
voice and thou wouldst return
O come to her who gave and
forook all others for thee.
sorrow
And I cannot retaliate
or
Once more my very soul
is tried
Beyond the limits nature
has assigned
Love
And what is love
know
not
and let me bend
the knee and kiss the road
As every christian in
affliction should
Come Holy Spirit
heal my wounded heart
And help me that I may
thy spirit keep
Til all the
broken hearted
comfort we poor mortals
home O comfort me and
teach me while I sleep
to endure
Today has pierced me
to my inmost soul
And must I suffer
and be patient still
Because I have no
power these burdens to con ^
Will there come a day when
I shall meet
One lost and gone who will
my cause defend
He loved me and his friend
ship was most true
Will he not in vision
be my friend
Teach me O Lord the wisest
course to take
Though I should suffer
let it be for
good
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